I like your resilience. If you are lucky to gain enough experience before dumping out of your dream, it will be a strong quality.
I was rushing it, that much is clear. After a two year rebuild and school out for summer I was itchy and tried to jump. This experience has shown me to avoid catastrophe or failure I have to remember to stay patient, do the work, and make sure the ducks are lined.
After next week the only thing I will lack is insurance and seamanship. This will be my first "trip." Sure, ive sailed up and down the st johns BEHIND the I95 to Hooters and Whiteys and Green Cove and what not. Sure ive sailed dinghy's around the Abaco sea. This will be my first cruise however.
So I have my charts, I have my anchorages marked with the winds they are protected from, I have my tide tables and GPS way points programmed. I have my gold membership to towboat us and very soon Ill have a reliable diesel I can keep accurate logs on.
I feel like the second time will be the charm.