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imagine2frolic 05-24-2011 12:18 PM

SAILING with CANCER
 
I started a thread some time ago titled ARE YOU ON THE FENCE? I started it with a goal, and that goal was to inspire folks to go cruising if that's their dream. Some think I will go when I have this, or we need that. What you really need is the deepest desire to explore the beauty of cruising.

My friends would ask if I am afraid at times, and I would answer, yes. What scares me most would be to miss out on what cruising has to offer. When you are with people who share the same dream you will find tons of help, and friendliness.

Last year we had to leave Imagine in Panama. I was physically fit, and looking so forward to the sail to Hawaii. The day we left I started to get a pain behind my ear. Like any pain I have always pushed through it, and eventually the body would take care of itself. This was different for 3 days without sleep it grew worse, and began to wrap around my brain. On the fourth day I could not stay awake, and I confessed to Melanie my situation. We turned back for Panama, and flew to the states.

I have never been shy about who I am, where I am, and what I am doing. This has been a difficult decision to make, but I have made it for multiple reasons. I have made some promises to myself, and to others. Also I want to pound into those on the fence to get it together, and go. Enjoy life while you have your health. That doesn't mean to just up, and leave. Get your sailing skills together, your finances , boat, and do as Zee types in her signature. Life is an adventure meant to be lived! You don't need the biggest boat out there just the heart to go!

I was told 6 weeks of treatment, and a month of healing, and I could return to Imagine. It did not turn out that way. After nearly 8 months of treatment being probed, cooked alive, poisoned, and losing nearly 60lbs of mostly muscle. I refused anymore treatment until it was modified. Eventually the last treatment I took I was told if I did not respond then I need to think about where I want to take my last breath. I didn't respond, and I was not going to be a science project. I made the decision I would live my life, and not let science wither me away until my last breath.

So, Melanie, my little brown love, and I have returned to Imagine. I refuse to let her sit here, and rot while I myself rot in S.F. Ca. We will sail to Hawaii where I can place my father's ashes as I promised to him. Then we will sail home to the S.F. Bay Area where we will eventually sell Imagine. She is our home, and when we sell her will depend on the timing of my life. I promised her family to return her to her country, and to care for her. The sale of Imagine will insure our return to the Phils, and to be finacially ok. The economy was not good to us. That's not a complaint, but a fact.

Imagine has had some issues from sitting in the tropics, but we are sorting those out. We had Spot tracker when we left Florida last year for S.F., and we will continue to have it. It is mostly by Mel, and her thoughts about our past life with Imagine, and our current situation. I have also added a blog titled SAILING with CANCER, ONE MAN's race against TIME! I am not a writer, but I will drift around describiing our past, our current, and our future adventures with Imagine. There will be some beautiful pics, and a few grizzly photos of my health early this year in both sites.

I know this is kind of depressing, but there is some good news. Since I have quit treatment I have put on about 20lbs. I could not hold a pencil in Feb, and now I am carrying water jugs, batteries, and what ever is needed to make Imagine fit. I don't have a lot of stamina, and all my strength. What I do have is a wonderful friend, mentor to sailing, who is flying in for the sail to Hawaii.

There will be updates while we prepare Imagine with photos of our progress. Hopefully we will get our hands on a sat phone of somekind to have updates across the Pacific. Hopefully you will find my writing entertaining, and you will follow us on our race against time.......i2f


Yacht Imagine via Panama to Hawaii - Sailing trip - Spot
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bljones 05-24-2011 12:27 PM

Kick some ass, I2f, and good on you for living, not waiting to die.

[IMG]http://rlv.zcache.com/****_cancer_tshirt-p235424142540817249qm0a_400.jpg[/IMG]

Hey, we need to get some "I2F uck Cancer" shirts made up.

smackdaddy 05-24-2011 12:32 PM

John, I hurt for you brother. From our PM exchanges I knew you were battling. Then I was talking to Ralph a couple of weeks ago while I was in Kemah and he told me about all this after I'd asked about you. It was pretty heartbreaking.

On the other hand, you and Mel inspire me. You're doing it right, John. No question. Sailing into the sunset.

I'm honored to call you friend from the various forums we've hung out on together. I would crew for you guys any day. Hell, I'd even sand teak for you!

I look forward to following you on this big adventure ahead. Live it well brother.

Thanks for sharing it.

imagine2frolic 05-24-2011 01:10 PM

GGEZE bl,

Take it easy on me. I spit my lunch out laughing so hard. The t-shirts are a great idea!

smack,

I have over 300 ft. of teak railing, and some benches. That's one hell of an offer

smackdaddy 05-24-2011 01:26 PM

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Originally Posted by imagine2frolic (Post 733729)
GGEZE bl,

Take it easy on me. I spit my lunch out laughing so hard. The t-shirts are a great idea!

smack,

I have over 300 ft. of teak railing, and some benches. That's one hell of an offer

Ahhh....yeah....about that.... Sigh.

Where's the damn paper?

(PS - Just mail it to me and I'll get busy. Heh-heh.)

SailKing1 05-24-2011 01:29 PM

I2F, Wow, Speechless. I do not really know you other than reading your postings here on Sailnet, which I must say have at times found to be enlightening. I had a mentor years back that was told he only had 6 months to live. He asked the Doctor what he would do if he was informed he only had 6 months. The Doctor replied, I would do all the things I wanted to but put off for what ever reason. This man lived life by that belief and informed the Doctor he would just keep working as he had done everything he wanted. You make an excellent point in your posting that we put things off for what ever reason. We need to live life to it's fullest every day and pursue those dreams. It sounds like you started that journey sometime back and will continue to do so enjoying life until the last minute, as it should be. Good on you for that. May the wind be at your back and your sails full.

knothead 05-24-2011 02:06 PM

Hey John, I wish the treatment had been more successful and that the news was better but I think that I would be making the same choice. I don't have a lot of faith in modern western medicine. Please don't rule out natural alternatives. They can't hurt.
God bless you buddy.

bubb2 05-24-2011 03:33 PM

John, thinking of you

Pamlicotraveler 05-24-2011 04:56 PM

I think all of us can relate to this and think your decision is the one we would make. I'll be watching! Thanks for keeping everyone up to speed here.

Faster 05-24-2011 05:26 PM

John, sorry to hear that treatments have been less than successful. Agree that most of us would like to think we'd make the same decision under the circumstances.

As someone whose wife has had a successful go at cancer treatments a few years ago I can say that sometimes there is a cure, and so I can't honestly say 'I know you you feel'.

Best wishes for the upcoming voyage, and for the best life you can lead.


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