I think a lot of us have those moments. I know I have:THE BIANKA LOG BLOG: LESSON LEARNED: Fear and Panic in East Hampton
Fear and/or anxiety can be your friends if it helps you prepare better or solve a problem that crops up unexpectedly. The important thing is to not let it paralyze you from taking action. In the end I usually say to myself "well that was not too bad".
Well , I;m gonna admit something that may be helpful. About 10 yrs ago, My business was going bad but itr didn't seem to bother me a bit but when sailing, i'd panic over nothing and couldnt figger out why. My mental state went downhill till I was grabbing an qaxe abnd swinging it at the walls and planning how to kill myself (my typin g is crap cuz I'm sitting aboard my boat oin the hard without lights). When my daughter asj\ked , "Dad, are you ok?" and I had to reply "no" and Iwent to doc who said "Serious depression ansd Anxiety, its gonna be effexor for you dude".
Started takin it and it was a miracle. Damn, I'dforgotten how fun stuff is. Went aroundf with a crazy smile for 6 months as I got used to it an saw what I'dbeen missing. It has an anti-anxiety component too and made it possible for me to go sailingh again. I thought it'd be temporary but without I'm a crazed angry anti-social guy so filled withj anxiety that I cannot even set foot ab oard. I've accepted the fact that I;ll always need it and I'd rather die than go back to the awfulness before it in spite of the side effects. So, if this has come on and you think it is not a normal paret of your psyche, you might have a similar prob. I got lucky in finding the right stuff on 1st try and many people need to try several things before finding a solution.
I used to tell myself the same thing, to "man up" and overcome the anxiety and thought I was normal in spite of feeling confident as my buswiness went down the tubes.
Sorry bout the typing but I'm sitting on my bnoat in the dark in MArsh Harbor boat yard where I'm fixing my 28' boAT for my next adventure.
Hey, its the 21st century, "better living thru chemistry"