I get it. Crew are exhausting in a way. They are like employees, not distant vendors. They need to be managed, both in setting expectations and keeping them motivated. Morale is the Captain's job. When the latter takes more work than you get back, it sucks.I’m very much done with crew, completely disgusted.
I've never had crew for more than a few hours that I didn't already know. I test them out to see how we get along and see how they do. Then I trust them to come longer, or deliver the boat without me. One became a very close friend after a while, but unfortunately passed away a handful of years ago. Finding the diamond in the rough takes time and effort.